this came as a SHOCK to me.. i was FLABBERGASTED.
a while ago, i just received an sms all the way from indonesia. guess what? it's ur sis asking me whether i received any news about you! obviously i didnt, since nov 3rd when u PROMISED you'd come back and live with us. after that no news, it's as if u've been abducted by some alien or perhaps i've been totally erased from ur memory.
we were so close once as close as sisters..i told most of my friends about u before. you were someone i trust, someone who knows me inside-out. so why the heck are you avoiding us?! how could u not even contact us? i bet u changed ur no. just cos u knew i was going to call u.. GULIT?! whatever it is, i feel so betrayed, every inch of me.
that sms told me 2 things..
#1 : u're obviously avoiding us, cos u DONT WANT us to have ur no.
#2 : u'r still alive, somewhere out there.
thought i could trust u. u've always given me advices and encouraged me even when u're in batam..u send sms-es to me frequently. like once, before my band concert, u told me not to be afraid and have confidence in myself. that msg meant so much to me, i've even kept it until now. how could u do this to me?! i thought by the start of Os u'd have come back and visited us..but what did i get?! disappointment after disappointment..
my grandparents constantly ask about you, my relatives too. all were worried that something might have happened to u. i kept cheating myself with the thought that u'd never break a promise. but wth.. cant blame us humans.
what have i ever done to you to deserve such treatment?! i felt like breaking down there and then when i saw the msg.. it had ended with ur new no. ur sis actually persuaded me to call u. SHOULD I?! u didnt even bothered bout me, not even a birthday wish like what u did in the past. it's like i'm just a fragment of ur imagination.. even if i call..should i sound angry, sad or betrayed? or should i just put on a cheery facade and act as if nothing has happened?
*i'm tempted to pick up the phone and dial the no. but i guess i wont afterall. =(
